Wednesday, May 9, 2012

My Chiana


I have a dog named Chiana and she is a female Pomeranian. She may only be  12 pounds. She thinks she's a lot bigger than she really is, but I don't have the heart to tell her.


I usually take her to this park called Ben Geren and there are trails for walking and for biking in these woods.


One day we went off the bike trail and walked in between this clearing with woods on both sides and about nearly 100 yards away I saw 5 or 6 deers. 
Well, it didn't take Chiana to take off and go after them. Of course I went after her, but since I have asthma, I couldn't run as much. By the time I got
there, Chiana and the deers were no where in sight. She went in the woods
after them and I spent probably 10 minutes or so calling her name.


It was getting a little bit dark, but I could still see. A few minutes later, Chiana finally showed herself all out of breath. I was upset at her, but relieved that she showed up. As we made our way out of the woods, I held 
onto her leash and never let go because I didn't want to go through that again. I just don't want to be attacked by asthma because of the silliness of my little dog, Chiana.By the way, this isn't the first time she's done this.


A brave little dog who I still haven't had the heart to tell her she's not as big as she thinks she is.

Sunday, May 6, 2012

It's my faith that sustains me.

The Bible says that at least we have a faith like mustard seed. Mustard seed is a small grain, yet when it grows it becomes big. The small mustard seed was a parallel on how our faith grows. I was just a new Christian that had a hunger and thirst to know Jesus. I met Him in an un-expected place. The time I invested to know Him was not in vain. By the time I needed  His divine mercy and guidance, He used people of different nationalities at different locations and time.

I was on my death bed in one of the clinics in Paris as I was given only 10 days more to live. But His words gave me life as I was reading the Bible. He also used people to send me His messages. He used the owner of the clinic to BE A CHANNEL OF FINANCES. And He used my French doctor to keep me alive. God is an artist. God is an administrator. God is a giver. God is a miracle working God. God is all in all.

The verse that hit me most is Isaiah 60:1- Arise,shine for your light has come. I asked God what does this mean. I was dying and how can I arise when I am in so much pain?  I didn't understand. The second verse that hit  me was the one given to me by my church mate when he called me the evening before the day of my surgery.

  He said, Sister,don't worry.IF God opens the door no one can shut and if He closes the door no one can open.

Those words became Rhema to me. My hope rose to the highest level. My hope is God! He is superior and the sickness is just a peanut to Him. By accepting and believing and putting my trust to Him, the result is my divine healing, my medical bill was paid and I am now enjoying second life to Him both second physical life and my second spiritual life!!!!!!Hallelujah

The unwanted ailment caused me try trading my soul to satan

I was 21 when I felt the pain in my right jaw. I thought it was just a simple toothache. I was working in Zilog Philippines by that time. I just ignored it but I felt I have the fever every afternoon, so I went over to our company clinic again. The company nurse suspected there was something more than the normal  toothache so she gave me a referral slip to take the mandibular X-ray. After I received the result, the doctor explained to me the diagnosis and that I need a major surgery. A situation that I wasn't prepared of emotionally, physically but most of all financially.

At 21, young and full of ambition,  all I have in mind  was to find a good job to start a new chapter in my life as all I have in my heart was to repay my parents' sacrifices in sending me to college. I want a job that can sustain me and as a normal human being, at least I can buy what I want to make my joy complete. I had just started, but I haven't gone too long to my employment. Just I thank God that I was already  a year woking in that company and the medical expenses were paid by the company plus the Industrial manager of the company was from Pangasinan,  same as mine.Motivated by mercy, he was able to approve some finances for my favor so I have an extra fund for my medicine and post operation follow-up and check ups.

The surgery caused me to resign from the company I was working with. I desired to also have a family in the future but the ailment changed my life. Out of desperation, during my solitude,  I was crying out like a crazy person, crying out to God for my healing and when I didn't see the manifestation, I cried out to satan, trading my soul in exchange of the beauty to be restored. Satan didn't reply me. Everyday was like a hell, I was hopeless and thinking to commit suicide out of desperation. God spared me for a reason and I got the chance to go to Paris,France by the help of my sister. From there, I received the saving miracle of God and the miracle of my second life.

To God be the glory!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Gardening as my hobby and exercise

Gardening is a good form of exercise and with lots of benefits like the pleasure of having a green thumb,  a good reason to stay under the early sunshine and a good source of FAITH=Food Always In The Home. My parents are farmers. Since my childhood I was already exposed in hard agricultural work and in tending and pasturing our animals. So no wonder that gardening is also a passion to me. I have 1000- sq.meter plot and 80 square meter is where my house built. So there is a remaining of more or less 800 sq.meters to plant both fruit bearing and flower bearing plants. I always divide my time with all my works like tending my goats, feeding my fowls and my other household chores like cooking, washing my laundry and house keeping. Everyday, except when I go out to buy for my necessity, I spend my time planting and watering my plants.

 It gives a smile on my face when I can already see my plants  start to bear fruits, or my flower bearing plants start to show buds of flowers.I just enjoy giving some energy in planting than just sitting in front of the computer. Besides the pleasure of gardening, the vegetables give me more fresh fruits because most of them are organic.

The vegetables that are easiest to plant but yield more vitamins are malunggay and sweet potatoes. In the Philippines, we eat the sweet potatoe tops. We boiled and make a salad out of it.We also mix or cooked with stewed pork meat or beef or even with fish.

Gardening is a form of exercise with good benefits because it takes a lot of movements to do so. Sweating a lot can drain the toxic we have in our bodies. It is fun to dig soil and it is far better than to stay overtime in front of the computer.....

I am forced to drive

Caaringayan is one of the twenty barangays of our small town of Laoac. This town is the youngest in the Philippines and it was taken from the municipality of Manaoag. Laoac was formerly the biggest barangay of Manaoag. Since this barangay rendered the biggest revenue to the municpality of Manaoag,  the residents
suggested to make this as a town. The current mayor by that time paid attention and exerted every effort for the approval for this barangay to become a  town. And in the year of 1981, after  long  so much works and proofs that this barangay is qualified,  Laoac began to be a town.

My barangay is just a a kilometer away from the town proper. The means of transportation are both private and public vehicles. But since people began to buy motor bikes, tricycles become scarce to pass by. Tricycle is the only means of public transportation in our community. This type of vehicle can only accommodate 6 passengers plus the driver.This is the reason that I was forced to buy a motorbike so I have my own transportation when I need to go to church or to do some errands.

At first I was a bit scared to drive because my motor is quite big and heavy compared to my height . I fell down a couple of times. These incidents caused my fear and embarrassment because one Sunday, I was just learning to drive alone, I was on my way going to our church for the Sunday Service. I was at the intersection and waiting my way to cleared. I must be alert of the vehicles coming on both sides and also from my back.When I thought everything was clear, I started to accelerate, unknowingly there was a motor coming from my left and I also should turn left. I was afraid to be hit so I braked suddenly that caused me to fall down.Shamed, because I was in a skirt as our church required all the leaders and workers to dress modestly for the service. But I must conquer my fear because I need to drive alone as I must go to our Sunday service and other church activities.

As time passes by I am learning the technique of two-wheeled driving. And I enjoy driving every time I go out. Still, no matter how experienced driver a person is, I  must learn to be cautious and alert all the time because I only have one life.

Saturday, May 5, 2012

The Sheep and the goats


Matthew 25:31-46

New International Version (NIV)
The Sheep and the Goats
    31 “When the Son of Man comes in his glory, and all the angels with him, he will sit on his glorious throne. 32 All the nations will be gathered before him, and he will separate the people one from another as a shepherd separates the sheep from the goats. 33 He will put the sheep on his right and the goats on his left.

The signs of Jesus' second coming are evidently undeniable like to name some are earthquakes, backsliding, rumors of wars and many others. The series of earthquakes around the globe is very scary. The Bible says don't be afraid just keep the trust. But sometimes I admit I am fearful when the earthquake is coming or coming again, how strong will be, in what season? Will it be during dry season or rainy season. Will it happen during night time or day time? The thought of this can't be removed from my mind. The thought of being alone added to my fears..

If Jesus is coming any moment from now, am I ready? Which side He will classify me? Is it on the side of the sheep or the goats? Well, this is the question to myself? 


I just realized I need to do more for the kingdom. I need to really exert effort to pray for the salvation of my family and for others. And I must learn to really be submissive to my superiors. Be obedient and be doers of the word of God.

Family trip to Baguio

Baguio is located north of the Philippines. A city situated on top of mountains that has " a spring time weather", not so cold and not so hot. It is  now summer in the Philippines and it is very, very hot hitting the  hottest temperature ever recorded this year is 36 degrees Celsius. So my sister and her fiance decided to have
a one-day cool off from our hometown and we have  an un-planned family trip to Baguio for a change.
It was  an eye catching the beautiful mountain scenery as we passed by. The big rocks that are keeping the mountains from eroding, the piled green trees used as belts, but what I like most as the van traveled was the cold breeze making our feelings better.

We went to Burnham Park, this is the common meeting place for the people to relax and to stroll to deprive the day's depression and to some is to kill the boredom just sitting there watching the passers and seeing the beautiful flowers planted around. Some go there to sell anything that can generate income, even the thieves and the pick pocketers are also there to make an easy money, eyeing for easy victims. Burnham Park has a man made lake.Since we had an ample time we decided to go boating and we had just  a half  hour boating thrill roaming around this little man-made lake.

Later on, the family decided to go to SM Baguio. SM is a chain of big and beautiful malls in the Philippines owned by the richest Filipino billionaire. Then at past 5 pm we headed home. Nice to have a cool change even just for one day. Hope to have another next time...

I must listen

One day, when I was working in Israel as a caregiver, my boss asked me to make some errands. She told me to pass by the bank where her son was working, to get some money and to buy things for the house. She changed her mind later and she asked me instead to go to a smaller market-store to buy for our need and to pass at the health center to buy her medicines. Instead of going to buy at the store, I changed my mind, after buying her medicines. I decided to go to the city to do  the shopping there.vI wanted to go to the city with my intention to pass by at the bank to get some money from her son. I did this for fear that she might not give my weekly allowance for my day-off.

While waiting for the bus heading to the city, there was a battle in my mind. Whether I proceed to go to the city or just go to the nearby department store. I, then decided to board the bus going to the city.

It was already 12 o'clock at midday  and the bank was already closed so I wasn't able to meet her son. I didn't want to wait another hour because I was already hungry and tired. It was the Jewish Feast of Succoth or Feast of Booth or Feast of Tabernacles, so the the city was crowded and oh, every where I can see the trash the people threw.

On my way going to get the bus, I was walking at the edge of the road, I just didn't notice a long,transparent plastic and I stepped on it. With my back pack full of fruits and vegetables, and  a plastic bag each in my hands. I was out balanced and I fell forward and my body and back pack weight over my leg and foot.And after that, my foot became numbed so I already knew that it was broken.

The lesson I learned from this incident is that, I must be sensitive enough to the warning of the Holy Spirit. He used my boss to warn me, but instead I ignored Him and I suffered the consequence of being insensitive to the warning signs.

My trip to the Dead Sea,the lowest part of the earth

I got up early morning as I was so excited to have this guided tour paid my boss as a gift for the good service I rendered for his mother. The meeting place was at the hotel down near Kiryat Moshe,Jerusalem where I used to work. Since the hotel is located a few blocks down  I descended till I reached the hotel. I went down early because I didn't want to miss the tour. I was so excited!

The trip included Mount of Olives, Masada and the Dead Sea. We first went to the Mount of Olives. It is a fantastic view. Mount of Olive is well known in the Bible as the place where Jesus was last seen and ascended to heaven. This is the best place to stop and stand  if you want to see the New Jerusalem and the Old city of Jerusalem and to see the valleys near the old city. In between the Mount of Olive and the Old city of Jerusalem, there is an old cemetery where in, according to the Jewish or Israelis, the Matriach and the Patriach were laid to rest. After  a few shots of the cam,  the driver and our tour guide at the same time called us on board for another trip and this time to Masada.

To go to Masada we must  pass the same road going to the Dead Sea. Along the way we stopped at the nearest mall. At the backyard there was one big cute camel for ride. Of course it was not for free. Hence I have the rare opportunity to see a camel personally and at the same time the chance to ride so this time I made sure to do it.. OMG! It was fun!! After few minutes we were called to proceed to our journey.

The driver preferred to bring us first to Masada, this is a place on top of a mountain and located south of the Dead Sea and around 20-minute drive by bus. The only way to go there is by cable car. Just wondering how the ancient people were able to live and brought their things up there. As we did in the Mount of Olive, after more than two hours on top of the mountain and several cam clicks, the guide called us to board into our bus.

Then time to head to the Dead Sea. I didn't know that part of the trip was to go to the SPA at the Dead Sea Beach. I didn't bring anything except what I was wearing.In this trip, I met Magda Cracknell from South Africa and we became friends.She's an awesome woman, kind and beautiful. And we went together all along and talked together. We became friends and for this reason we shared the locker for our belongings.

It was fun swimming with Magda and with the other tourists boarded in our bus. It was an early summer and so many tourists both locals and foreigners. The Dead Sea is 10x saltier than the other seas. The excessive saltiness of the water cause a person to float but just be careful to accidentally put water in the eyes. And we just enjoyed the sea. Because I don't know  how to swim, I always shared the floating tire and I thank God I just floated automatically too.

Our time was limited and the guide told us to leave at around 3 pm so we can arrive in Jerusalem at 5 pm. Every one rushed into our respective lockers. Magda was fine and easily changed her clothes after rinsing but I got a big problem!!  I was not able to find my legging. Problem because I didn't have the extra clothes to wear. The time was almost close to go on board so I asked Magda to buy me a legging from the shop up there. Thank God! She was able to find one for me because she said there were only two to choose from. This friend of mine saved me from shame as I can't walk along the road of Jerusalem with just a towel on.  Kiryat Moshe where I was staying  is  a mixed neighborhood of  the secular, modern orthodox and the haredim. But this trip is a fantastic one with lots of memories and a friendship that made.

My visit to the old city of Jerusalem

This trip is one of the 4 guided tours of my boss' paid gift tours. Although I already went to the Old city maybe less than a hundred times,  this trip was terrific. With the guide and the pretty explanation, I learned about the history of the places we went and the entrees and exits. If you aren't familiar of  the way, the streets and outlets surely you get lost.
Well, it was an honor to set foot and visiting the places where Jesus walked while He was on on earth. We went to the Bethesda pool, where in Jesus' time a sick person must be thrown to the pool for his healing. Then we  pass by the via Dolorosa,  here Jesus carried His cross to the Calvary. After that,  we went to the Wailing Wall. This is the place where the Jewish people pray if they have especial request to our Yahweh.

The old city is just like 4,000 years ago.The wall are still in almost original structure except to some necessary repairs. There are some places of the old city where it is called Jewish quarter,  the other is Christian quarter and the other is the Arab quarter. We also visited where the Temple used to be and it is called Temple Mount. Now the dome of the Rock had been built over that area. On this site is sacred for both Jewish and Arab people.This is also the root of quarrels between two sons of  Abraham, the root of two religion quarrels.

I love Jerusalem.This is the center of Israel and Israel is the center of the world.

My French Doctor

It wasn't good. I just preferred to stay in my room than to attend our weekly meeting. I called the Rohi Department of my intention and Sis Merle, who was the head by that time approved. I thought by staying quietly and praying earnestly would make my situation better. I thought God will give what I was longing for>> my divine healing. This ailment put me in terrible pain and discomfort and been hurting me for years.

Now it came to a point that I felt that the medicines were no longer  effective. The infection didn't subside, worst, I wasn't able  to eat anymore nor swallow any liquid. My throat was swollen and forbidding any sort of food to swallow. My friend took me to the doctor and we were glad we found someone. God is good  because he was one of the best Stomatologist in France.

Dr. Princ was kind and understanding French doctor. I owe him a lot. God used him to heal me physically and he was the vessel God used so that my medical bill be paid. And I never met such a human being like him. He never asked for his prefessional fee for the surgery and same thing with the consultation. I had four surgeries  under his hands and all  four, he helped me with my financial difficulty.  I never met such a merciful, helpful and understanding doctor in my life. Thank you very much Dr. Guy Princ.You are always in my heart and I keep you in my prayers.....


Neilly sur Seine in France

During my stay over seas, most of the time I was alone. During my 12 year-stay in France I used to rent a room in Neuilly sur Seine, near Bagatelle, a very nice suburb of Paris. There is a man made lake nearby and a botanical garden, full of different colored tulips and I think a hundred varieties of roses. As I remember, during spring many people just come to the beautiful parks of Neuilly. There is also an area where they can practise football.

Every spring until summer, I used to bring my niece to Jardins des Acclimation. We were playing and riding on the caterpillar, train that encircles the jardins and the other rides that were available. We also used to have picnic there near at the man-made lake and just spent quietly sleeping under the shades of the tree or were just playing cards or other sort of games. We did play and eat alternately.

Aside from the beautiful scenery, Neuilly sur Seine is considered the millionaires' place .Majority of the residents own their big beautiful houses and majority of the residents are dignitaries. This  rich neighborhood  is also where the American Hospital  located. On the other side, there is a part of the river where the boat houses are allowed to stay. As we all know the French people are also adventurous. Some preferred to live in the boat houses. Neuilly Sur Seine is a beautiful  place to stay and to visit..

My foremost personal desire

I was born again in August 3,1985. The term born again is found in John 3:3 as a pre-requisite  to obtain an eternal life. The explanation as to how and why  is explained on the following or next verses. Salvation is free and easy to acquire but to walk a holy life and obeying God's word is hard. We need to invest time to learn His Word and our changes can't happen overnight.

God's Word is the Truth. It's the Way to the eternal life. It has power for those who believe. God is a Spirit so He talks and speaks to us through his Holy Spirit by connecting to our human spirits. There are many do and don'ts in the kingdom of God. We  must exercise our choices and the choices are either to obey or dis-obey,.to listen or to ignore.

As a christian,  I want the best for my life. I am getting old and I've been alone through out my life. I do believe that God will give the best man for me. Nothing is impossible with God and nothing is impossible with those who believe. I believe in God and I do also believe that I can receive what I am praying for. God is a God of miracle, a prayer answering God, a merciful God and a powerful God. I do believe He gave me the best man as I see it in the spirit realm. I just wait for the time in the very near future that He will bring the one for me in the natural  because He is the author and perfecter of my faith. Amen

My Passion>>>Traveling to different places in France

I do like traveling. To travel means that money is also involved. France is one of the most beautiful countries I like most aside from my own country. It is a rich country known for the quality champagne and wine production. I do like their chocolates and food as well. Several delicious choco makers I tasted are Lenotre, Hediard and many others I need to recall. Well, we all know that  expensive perfumes, bags, clothes and other accessories are France's unbeatable pride.

Speaking of traveling, everytime I heard that a group of Filipinos intend to go to another place I always told  them to count me in. Starting from the south, I can recall the trips. I and 2 friends went to Corsica for summer nanny job. Corsica is an island in the south of France but it is more close to Italy by distance. People there speak both Italian and French.

Another place in the south I went to were Nice and Cannes. Really awesome! I went there with my bosses together with a friend. My boss gave us the chance to attend  the Cannes Film festival which was on going by that time we had the summer break. It was a privilege to go there come to think that those attendees were rich, famous, celebrities and dignitaries..

Another place I admired is Lourdes which is located in south western France and bordering with Portugal I guess. It is a unique place having the cave for underground travel exploration and a mount to climb either by foot or by a train.

Another place I didn't forget is Normandy that is known for Dday. And going farther north is the Eurodisney.Wow! Everything there is expensive but it was fun and great experience to be there, riding with all those rides the theme park could offer.

France is also rich for historical land marks like that of Eiffel Tower. It was awesome to reach the top most of the tower, watching the beautiful sceneries of the city of Paris and as far as the eyes could see. After the Eiffel Tower, there was also the Bateau Mousse, which is another fun ride to experience.

I was also indeed happy to go and have some mallings and strolling in La Defense. Another place that is good to see is the Pyramid.....Wow I just realized that I have lots of places I went to, and it is only now I made the counting. Thank God for the sweet memories I experienced in this beautiful country of France.

Thursday, May 3, 2012

It's more fun in the Philippines

Just I noticed nowadays that there are a lot of mix-raced marriages in our municipality. They are building big beautiful, modern houses that make the community obvious of its changes. I just wonder why those foreigners prefer to stay or live in our country when in fact theirs are more advanced and their governments are far better than ours. Philippines was ruined economically by the previous corrupt government officials.

There are many places here to go to have some funs.We have the San Fabian Beach. This is the nearest beach and a place where the common people can go to have some funs  in swimming and jet skiing.

The other beach is Tondaligan Beach in Dagupan city. A city after San Fabian.The beach has beautiful sand and nice to go along for strolling.
The Lingayen Gulf is also another beach to go.It is a very clean beach with free cottages there.There are also small stores allocated by the government  to sell some street foods.
The other pride of Pangasinan is the cluster of 100 islands and islets. The sand there is as clear as crystal and the water is very clear and clean. I just enjoyed and cherished the trip there. I want to go back but I just don't know as to when?

Our family re-union

Waking up at 3 a.m is too early for me.Anyway,just only once in awhile sacrifice.I,together with my mother,my nephew and my niece prepared to go to Manila at NAIA to fetch my sister and her French fiance.They came to take their 2012 summer vacation here in the Philippines.Normally, my sister is taking up the vacation in December or February.But for the first time after being a resident in France for 30 years,she came over during Lenten season.

It was 4:30 pm when they were able to exit from the airport.Bernard was too excited to come to the Philippines for the third time.After one hour, the sky was becoming dark so we needed to board the van we rented. We must  get home before midnight.The excitement of Bernard was changed into irritation due to the heavy traffic besides the hot temperature in Manila.The agony was added when the driver missed the right way going the the North Luzon Express way.We roamed around the circle in a heavy traffic in Manila before the driver got the right way.

My sister's stay was  tremendous blessings for us.She always thought of our get together during their less than a month's stay on here.She and Bernard arranged our going to the beach in San Fabian,Pangasinan.We just enjoyed the boating and playing in the salty water.The following Sunday, she invited her former classmates.It was fun eating and mingling with them.The most fun out of it was the opportunity for us to eat together.Then another instant decision was our family trip to Baguio.The van we rented roamed around the city and the last stop was SM Mall.They need to buy some souvenirs they need to give to their friends.At 5 pm, the van just slowly passing again to the Kennon Road, only this time was descending on our way home.I treasure all these opportunities of having funs,trips,bonding and eating together.Very rare opportunities that God had given to us.Now they are just good memories but I still do believe that they will come back again next year together with my niece Stephanie to spend another vacation .Thank you Lord for giving us all these chances and blessings.